!!DOUBLE FEATURE!!
I have caught myself in rut, if you will. As the next season of my life approaches, I can’t help but be torn in three different pieces. Do I go home, settle down, finish my degree and become a teacher. Yes. Do I stay on the field, disciple people and walk with them through their faith journey? Yes. Do I just drop it all and fall off of the grid for a while, travel and continue figuring out my walk with the Lord, while serving others? Yes.
I am in the perfect season of my life, no kids, no commitments, no set future. No. Freaking. Clue – or so it feels like. But all of my thoughts point back to three simple words.
God
Glory
Go
I pray and I pray about what’s next and all I hear in my spirit is, “Go Ahead,”
…
” LOL. Ok God, but where the hell do I go?” My honest response.
and then..
**silence**
This is a familiar place for me, actually. The whole Race. You see, I’ve learned a lot about my walk with the Lord and how I follow Him. Believe it or not, I’m very spirit led. Sometimes, my walk looks very impulsive and in some cases that might be so, but in others, I’m just doing what I’m being led to do. I will do anything for God, His Glory, wherever He tells me to Go.
In this case, I am being led to do what glorifies the Lord and the way I see it, that could be anything. That could be going home, ministering to my friends, family and community, whilst finishing school and starting my career and transitioning into real adulthood. But that also means settlement, contentment.
This could also mean, Squad Leading for Gap Year and walking with young adults between the ages of 18-20, through their faith journey and spurring them on. Shepherding the next generation, a passion that burns so intensely in my heart that at times, it looks like smoke is seeping through my nostrils.
The more risky option, consists of continuing to travel around the world. Being a freelance missionary, if you will, and living my dream of living out the most radical Great Commission life that I can. I know that I don’t need to cross an ocean to be a missionary but the fact of the matter is, that I want to. I want to be in the danger of it all, spreading the gospel. Moving from place to place, no settlement until the Lord says so.
Ambitious? Unrealistic? Irresponsible? Outlandish? Childish? One might think so, but honestly, I certainly do not.
So, what do I do? Truly, the decision is up for grabs. My heart is set on one dial with three different options. The dial being God and the three options being what I’ve laid out for you above.
I am sharing this with you all because I am going to ask you to join me in prayer over my next steps. I will boldly say, I am not looking for advisement. I am not wanting the “You Should” comments. I am simply looking for your prayerful support.
Frankly, I am stuck in this situation because I am worried about the opinions of my family and reluctant because this means sacrificing the comforts of my home community for another period of time.
So, will you please join me in this?
If you have any gifting in intercessory prayer, listening prayer, prophecy or anything else. Feel free to reach out with truth and encouragement from the Lord.
Thanks for always reading my blogs. Sorry, if this one was mundane.
All My Love,
Mariss
